Léo Scienza, Southampton midfielder, described playing in England's Championship as "a bloodbath" and one of the toughest leagues in the world.
The 27-year-old Brazilian spoke candidly about his life-changing experiences that led him to join the Premier League club from Germany's Bundesliga side Heidenheim last summer for £8m.
Scienza's father died when he was 20, prompting a two-month depressive spell during which he considered ending his life. The loss had no meaning in his life at the time.
"I wasn't afraid of anything anymore," Scienza recalled, recalling his desperate situation. "I went to Sweden with all positivity and dreams but everything was wrong."
The young footballer played in Sweden's fifth tier for a short spell before being convinced by unscrupulous agents that he would get a chance at a top-tier club.
Instead, Scienza found himself playing at Fanna, 80km north of Stockholm. "It was shit," he said about the experience, which left him feeling depressed and broke after issues with his salary and accommodation.
However, despite these challenges, Scienza discovered that playing football helped him cope with depression. In Sweden, he scored 10 goals for a team in the lower divisions and eventually earned a move to Magdeburg's second tier.
After dropping through the divisions, the star midfielder found success at Ulm in the third tier, where his efforts led to an offer from Heidenheim. A remarkable goal that secured promotion kept Southampton interested, leading them to sign Scienza.
Now playing for Southampton, Scienza acknowledges it is a challenging league but has adapted well. "There are two or three players on you all the time," he joked about the physicality of the Championship.
Scienza's journey is an inspiring story of perseverance and resilience in the face of adversity. The midfielder says that finding support through psychology has helped him understand life better, accepting things as they come rather than trying to control them.
While his career path remains uncertain, Scienza expressed a desire to play for Brazil's national team one day, though he knows it's an ambitious goal at this stage.
The 27-year-old Brazilian spoke candidly about his life-changing experiences that led him to join the Premier League club from Germany's Bundesliga side Heidenheim last summer for £8m.
Scienza's father died when he was 20, prompting a two-month depressive spell during which he considered ending his life. The loss had no meaning in his life at the time.
"I wasn't afraid of anything anymore," Scienza recalled, recalling his desperate situation. "I went to Sweden with all positivity and dreams but everything was wrong."
The young footballer played in Sweden's fifth tier for a short spell before being convinced by unscrupulous agents that he would get a chance at a top-tier club.
Instead, Scienza found himself playing at Fanna, 80km north of Stockholm. "It was shit," he said about the experience, which left him feeling depressed and broke after issues with his salary and accommodation.
However, despite these challenges, Scienza discovered that playing football helped him cope with depression. In Sweden, he scored 10 goals for a team in the lower divisions and eventually earned a move to Magdeburg's second tier.
After dropping through the divisions, the star midfielder found success at Ulm in the third tier, where his efforts led to an offer from Heidenheim. A remarkable goal that secured promotion kept Southampton interested, leading them to sign Scienza.
Now playing for Southampton, Scienza acknowledges it is a challenging league but has adapted well. "There are two or three players on you all the time," he joked about the physicality of the Championship.
Scienza's journey is an inspiring story of perseverance and resilience in the face of adversity. The midfielder says that finding support through psychology has helped him understand life better, accepting things as they come rather than trying to control them.
While his career path remains uncertain, Scienza expressed a desire to play for Brazil's national team one day, though he knows it's an ambitious goal at this stage.